I'm going offline for about 3 weeks. I'm losing internet here in a few hours and I've also got a million and one things to do before I go on vacation to see my family. I'll be gone two weeks so I'm just going to say see ya later now and see you guys when I get back!
Play nice!
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
Saturday, July 04, 2009
Independence Day
Today was very fitting that it was Independence Day. Our first official weigh-in landed on today and I'm free from 2 more pounds off my body. Independence from weight! I'm really proud of how I am doing. I'm a bit scared to go on vacation for two weeks right as I'm gaining momentum but I know that it will be okay. I also know that no matter what happens in New Mexico, Carebear is not going to let me get away with not getting back on plan when I return.
And lucky me, I'm going to have text messaging while I'm gone so I'll be able to keep up with her the entire two weeks! You better not fall off the wagon missy! I will totally get Carson on you. And you know I can.
Also speaking of the 4th, my family and Carebear's all went to the local fireworks area here. There had to have been maybe almost 10k people there total. I couldn't get over how many people there were. We had such great seats to the fireworks show that my neck even got tired from looking up. They had patriotic music going through big speakers and it was so cool to watch the show while listening to a compilation of country songs and american-centric music. There was one part that had all these great men in our country's history saying their famous lines from their famous speeches. Kennedy, King, Jr., Roosevelt... I got goosebumps everywhere. So many great leaders have had such beautiful visions for the future of our country. I really felt proud to live in America at that moment. I usually do but it just was such a beautiful feeling to be there with all these people.
Well I'm exhausted, I've done too much walking today! Probably a little more than 2 miles for the round trip. 20 minutes there, 30 minutes back. That's a good 50 minute walking workout!
And lucky me, I'm going to have text messaging while I'm gone so I'll be able to keep up with her the entire two weeks! You better not fall off the wagon missy! I will totally get Carson on you. And you know I can.
Also speaking of the 4th, my family and Carebear's all went to the local fireworks area here. There had to have been maybe almost 10k people there total. I couldn't get over how many people there were. We had such great seats to the fireworks show that my neck even got tired from looking up. They had patriotic music going through big speakers and it was so cool to watch the show while listening to a compilation of country songs and american-centric music. There was one part that had all these great men in our country's history saying their famous lines from their famous speeches. Kennedy, King, Jr., Roosevelt... I got goosebumps everywhere. So many great leaders have had such beautiful visions for the future of our country. I really felt proud to live in America at that moment. I usually do but it just was such a beautiful feeling to be there with all these people.
Well I'm exhausted, I've done too much walking today! Probably a little more than 2 miles for the round trip. 20 minutes there, 30 minutes back. That's a good 50 minute walking workout!
Friday, July 03, 2009
Four days and counting
So I have four days of exercise and counting. I'm pretty proud of myself! I've been doing Biggest Loser BootCamp when Carebear comes over about once or twice a week and the other days I have done Denise Austin's Sizzler. I'm not exactly loving Sizzler, but it's something that makes me sweaty, heart racing, and where I get to use light weights (as of today I added them). It's also my old 'stand by'. Something I know works. I have other biggest loser videos that I can do but they are harder and without someone here pushing me to get through the workout I tend to shy away from them. Denise Austin is about what I can handle for most of the week. While working on the abs segment today, I got a charlie horse in my abs. It was horrible, horrible! When you get a cramp you can walk it off because most likely it's in your leg or foot. Feeling it in my upper abs was weird and ugly feeling and it hurt. I had to rub it and ended up not really able to finish the rest of the ab segment. Every crunch I did it'd tighten back up on me.
Tomorrow is weigh-in. I'm proud of myself for staying away from the scale. I truly am clueless as to what it might show. I can hope for certain numbers all I want but as I was talking with Carebear, she said it best. "I just want to see progress." and honestly, that's all I want to see too. I just want to see progress. I won't depend on the scale to make me feel all this hard work was worth it because honestly even without the scale, the hard work was worth it. It's about taking charge of my health and not just fitting into the 'perfect' size. Sure, I want to fit into that size but when it really comes down to it, I know that I'm doing all the things I need to be doing. I'm working out, I'm eating better and I'm keeping up my water intake. I've even started taking a multi-vitamin!
I'm going to workout sometime tomorrow and probably before I weigh. As much as I know that I've done a good job, psychologically I think I still want to work out before I weigh. That's how I've always done it, even the other times I tried to lose weight. I would work out and then go to Jenny Craig or Weight Watchers. I just like that 'worked out' feeling. The blood rushing through you body giving it that zing! It makes me feel thinner.
I need to go start the laundry. I swear it is a mountain but I guess the only way to move a mountain is one rock at a time. In my case, one load at a time.
Later, Cookies!
Tomorrow is weigh-in. I'm proud of myself for staying away from the scale. I truly am clueless as to what it might show. I can hope for certain numbers all I want but as I was talking with Carebear, she said it best. "I just want to see progress." and honestly, that's all I want to see too. I just want to see progress. I won't depend on the scale to make me feel all this hard work was worth it because honestly even without the scale, the hard work was worth it. It's about taking charge of my health and not just fitting into the 'perfect' size. Sure, I want to fit into that size but when it really comes down to it, I know that I'm doing all the things I need to be doing. I'm working out, I'm eating better and I'm keeping up my water intake. I've even started taking a multi-vitamin!
I'm going to workout sometime tomorrow and probably before I weigh. As much as I know that I've done a good job, psychologically I think I still want to work out before I weigh. That's how I've always done it, even the other times I tried to lose weight. I would work out and then go to Jenny Craig or Weight Watchers. I just like that 'worked out' feeling. The blood rushing through you body giving it that zing! It makes me feel thinner.
I need to go start the laundry. I swear it is a mountain but I guess the only way to move a mountain is one rock at a time. In my case, one load at a time.
Later, Cookies!
Wednesday, July 01, 2009
Realizations
You know, I feel good right now. Not just because I worked out today but because I made the choice to do something good for my body. This morning while I was washing dishes I realized, honestly, in full color that getting thin just isn't going to "happen". I'm not going to grow older and thinner simultaneously. It just doesn't happen that way. In the dark recesses of my mind and heart I honestly thought I would. I never thought that I would be having to "get back to" a weight that I was the year previous, or two years previous. I never thought I would have to mark occasions in my life like my wedding day and try and get back to that weight or under that weight. Sure, I always needed to loose weight, but I mean I thought you just grew out of being fat, eventually. It sounds stupid huh? To think that way? But I think that there are people that do. I know I was one of them. I kind of wanted to cry for that girl, who thought that way, because she was so disillusioned. I had wasted so much time...
You just can't get around being overweight except to work at not being that way anymore. Simply put. There just is no other way in the world to get thinner than what you are now than to make it happen for yourself and by finding out how to go about it.
Life is a buffet right? And we can wait and wait and wait to even get in line and by the time we do all the good stuff is gone and we are standing there looking at everyone else, longing to have what they all seem to have on their plates. In the end we just wish that we would of done something to get in there and get what we had wanted. Well we have to! We have to be selfish for ourselves because no one else will be. If we want something in life we have to take it because there is no fairy standing by the food picking out all the best stuff to bring us on a silver platter, it just isn't going to happen people.
Get in there and make your life meaningful. Be who you want to be, regardless of weight. If you can't do that being the size that you are, take steps to change that. Get in there, get the best parts of life!! Who are you not to deserve it? You breathe, eat, sleep, fart, feel, cry, laugh, think, love, and hate like ever other human being. You are good enough to exist in this universe, you are good enough to have what the universe/God/Spirit (or whatever you call your higher being) has to give. We deserve happiness and we have the right to choose to be happy.
So, when you're up at that big buffet called life, picking out all the good stuff for yourself, if you happen to see that fairy with her silver platter and goodies...do me a favor and slap her for me.
You just can't get around being overweight except to work at not being that way anymore. Simply put. There just is no other way in the world to get thinner than what you are now than to make it happen for yourself and by finding out how to go about it.
Life is a buffet right? And we can wait and wait and wait to even get in line and by the time we do all the good stuff is gone and we are standing there looking at everyone else, longing to have what they all seem to have on their plates. In the end we just wish that we would of done something to get in there and get what we had wanted. Well we have to! We have to be selfish for ourselves because no one else will be. If we want something in life we have to take it because there is no fairy standing by the food picking out all the best stuff to bring us on a silver platter, it just isn't going to happen people.
Get in there and make your life meaningful. Be who you want to be, regardless of weight. If you can't do that being the size that you are, take steps to change that. Get in there, get the best parts of life!! Who are you not to deserve it? You breathe, eat, sleep, fart, feel, cry, laugh, think, love, and hate like ever other human being. You are good enough to exist in this universe, you are good enough to have what the universe/God/Spirit (or whatever you call your higher being) has to give. We deserve happiness and we have the right to choose to be happy.
So, when you're up at that big buffet called life, picking out all the good stuff for yourself, if you happen to see that fairy with her silver platter and goodies...do me a favor and slap her for me.
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